I am easily finding out that with 2 kids, it’s just hard. Hard to adjust, hard to get time with Haven b.c I am holding Harbin. Hard to have patience when one is screaming and the other is not listening b.c she can’t hear or b.c she just doesn’t want to. It’s hard to get anything done when you get home after a car ride, and Harbin wakes up the minute you put him down in his carrier….much less if you put him down in his crib after holding him. It’s hard to get sleep when they wake up wanting food. AND it’s hard to wake up period in a good mood (wait that never happens–I am NOT a morning person, much less if I don’t get much sleep)
I love my kids, but sometimes, I feel like I am a grouch all the time and lose my patience. I hate that, especially when Haven doesn’t get a lot of ‘me’ time during the day. I try to make up for it at night and have Micah hang with Harbin while I hang with Haven.
I don’t mean to complain, I love my kids and they are true miracles, but sometimes, it’s just hard.
Lord, thank YOU for my sweet kids, please help me to have more patience and give me wisdom to know how to handle situations and to love on my kids unconditionally, even when I want to pull my hair out.