We had a sweet time with family and friends yesterday to celebrate Harbin. He had strict instructions for no Chick Fil A cow….

Sweet baby Avery Claire.

Baby Avery and Haven.

All of Chick fil A was singing Happy Birthday to him. He was a little shy.

Sweet H.

Some of our best friends. Ellie, Ms. Jaina and Joe.

Icing face.

David Harbin you had so many that came to celebrate you. We are all so blessed to have you in our lives. We love you!

I may be on my knees, but I am standing in Him and His Word. His promises never fail. He won’t leave or forsake us. He is who He says He is and He will do what He says He will do. May it start in my heart. Healing, revelation, restoration and redemption.

Today is a special day b.c my sweet baby boy was due on this day. This was his official due date. I will always remember these two days. Tomorrow, although I am blogging about it tonight, b.c I won’t be able to tomorrow, was when my second baby went to heaven. Somehow, no matter how long ago, a mommy always remembers dates. It was January 8th 2004. So long ago, but still so fresh in my mind. It’s amazing to think about being safe in Heaven with Jesus, yet we are also safe here, our earthly home, with Jesus.

Birthing means to: A beginning or commencement. I feel like the past few years have been that for me. Sometimes traumatic events lead you to that, normally not by your choosing. He gives and He takes away, but His name is to be called blessed. I won’t understand some things, but I will trust and know that He is and will continue to birth in me His purpose. And for my babies, the ones I’ve lost, and the ones here on earth that I get to show Jesus to, their hearts would be molded to Him. And when my heart literally beats out of my chest from hurt and pain and grief (and anxiety-who knew) then I will still trust and know that my heart is His. And He knows.

A reminder from You when I needed it most.

just because.

following the leader.

the hot chocolate afterwards

afternoon snack.

Today was the day I was scheduled to have you 3 years ago. You are so special for many reasons:

-you are the Lord’s

-you run up to me at random times and say ‘I lub you mommy’ just because.

-when you want me to pick you up or you want to be held, you say ‘i hold you’.

-when you are having a hard time getting to sleep at night, i ask what you need, it’s always ‘i just need you’.

-during intense parts of movies, or intense music, you put your hands on your ears or cover your eyes.

-when you hurt yourself you want me to kiss it and pray.

-you love reading each night, and praying with mommy and sissy

-you are asking so many questions about Jesus and where He is. and His angels that protect us.

-you love veggie tales and Bob the Builder

-your favorite song this year is: ‘A Bushel and a Peck’ by Junior Asparagus.

-you love your sissy and want to know where she is at all times. you have to give her a hug and a kiss before each nap and before bed.

There are so many things that make you who you are. You love learning, counting, spelling, and lining things up so they are organized.:) It has been a hard year for all of us, and you have made it so much more special b.c of who the Lord is making you to be. You are sensitive to Him and to others. You love deeply and feel sweetly. You haven’t been as sick this year as you have been the first two years, and we are continuing to believe that your bronchial asthma continues to lessen as you get older, but it’s still a struggle for you.

You are a cuddler and a hugger and you have blessed me and your sister beyond what you will ever know. And I know that others around you have also been blessed by your sweet spirit and your smile.

I pray you would continue to bring glory to your Heavenly Father, Jesus. He loves you more than any other.

I’m so proud of you.

Mommy.

Yesterday my youngest tured three. So much to say, but so much emotion. Will write soon.

Praying for your heart to stay pure. For the Lord’s continued protection over your heart, mind, spirit. That your sensitivity to the Lord would grow stronger as you continue to please Him. That you will remember how much He loves you and how beautiful you are to Him. Beauty is within you. It’s Jesus inside you…..

You are learning so much. I love this stage in your life, yet am sad b.c you are growing up. No more bottles or pacis. You are all boy, yet you already have so many questions about Jesus. You want to know where He lives and if He can come to your school. How you and I prayed for the right school for you where you can learn about Jesus everyday. And He has provided that. You are so sensitive to Him and you are so loved. You love Barney and Bob the Builder and Veggie Tales.

 

You are both such a blessing and a treasure. You bless my heart each day when I see you after work and you run up and hug me tight. Your smiles light up any dark day and your sweet spirits I KNOW please Jesus. I know that you both are in His hands, b.c you are loved, protected, held safe. There are things that I can’t control, although I wish that I could protect you from all the things that you shouldn’t see, hear, do, yet I KNOW HE HAS YOU IN HIS HANDS. He has it all planned out for you….and His puproses in your life will be fulfilled.

Mommy loves you. Always.

there are many blessings we have. this one particular one has been truly from the Lord. she is haven’s special friend and counselor. she has sacrificed her time, she has given her heart and soul into praying with haven, loving on her, and helping by the Holy Spirit. she has such a sweet spirit, i find myself thanking the Lord for her on so many occassions.  she is an answer to so many prayers. she gets to see her once a week and some days are better than others, but we know that God works all things together for GOOD, to those that love Him.

we pray for ms. savannah all the time, and i pray that the Lord would continue to bless her as she has been a blessing to us. that He would give her the desires of her heart, the longing of her soul. the peace and rest in the waiting. she, as we all have at times, been through hard days, not understanding the Lord’s hand at times, yet she is a testimony of grace and giving of self to fulfill the call on her life.

we love you so much and are so grateful that you are in our lives. thank you for showing haven Jesus and for not giving up on what the Lord is wanting to teach and work in us all.

you are truly amazing and we are in awe of the goodness of God.