In my doubt, You reassure me.
In my fear, You are perfect love.
In my loneliness, You are a friend.
In my blindness, You help me see.
In my grief, You are near.
In my pain, You comfort.
In chaos, You are my calm.
In my journey, You are here.
Have you gone shopping for something? You couldn’t describe it, but you knew you would know it when you saw it. You didn’t know what it was until you actually saw it.
Have you ever been pulled toward something and you don’t know what it is? That tug in your Spirit that you can’t describe to anyone, but you just know that you’re being pulled. You can’t describe it.
Whenever you walk with God, don’t know too much. B.c when you know too much you’ll miss it. You have to just play it by ear. Walk it out by faith.
He wants us to rely on Him and just keep walking with Him. Am I willing to travel by myself in the will of God even though it’s by myself? Even if, by the world’s standards, it is hopeless and they don’t understand?
He is going to do something amazing in me…..He is preparing me….God…He is going to take me higher than I have ever been before…..the destiny and purpose He has for me is being fulfilled…
Doing His will means it will take you out of your comfort zone…a place where you aren’t sure what is going to happen next. Where He is getting ready to take me, He will provide…He will make the way…
How well do I listen? I know we had a little test the other day. I may not see the answer but the answer is coming. If I walk in His will….it’s coming over the mountain…just keep walking in faith. I need to praise Him for the blessings I haven’t recieved yet. Am I willing to walk by faith—to the other side of the mountain–even though I can’t see the answer, the breakthrough, even though the journey could be long? Can I praise Him even though all I see is the mountain? And amazingly enough, I get to walk with Him on the journey….He won’t let me go it alone….
Open the eyes of our heart, Jesus. Restore a right spirit within us…break us and mold us.
Thank you for the faith journeys. Thank You for speaking to us in the depths….for being patient while we continue to learn how to listen and hear from You…
I finally got this album. She’s a singer with Hillsong, as well as an amazing writer. Proof. One of my new faves…
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We had fun taking pictures of Harbin today. He is such a sweet boy and I can’t believe how big he’s getting. It has gone by way too fast. I can’t believe his cousin Mr. Roman is going to be one in a few short weeks……
I miss my Aunt Erin.
My all time favorite picture up to this point….
There really isn’t a title for this one. Today was my 30th birthday. One that was not looked upon with excited, b.c, well, it’s 30. I know that it’s supposedly ‘the new 20′. We’ll see. However, I did decide to invite my family and close friends over to celebrate and hang for a bit.
Me and Steph.
Brightly, Haven, and Kayleen.
Beautiful-eyed Justus.
Me with Audra’s princess tiara.
Me with Ashley, and the two boys born a day apart, Harbin and Justus.
Me and Kelley.
Audra and Haven played dress up.
Haven painted this for me for my birthday. I had no idea….
Me and Kristin.
Lord, I’m in awe of how You choose to bless me and love me.
K.
So, my dear sweet friend threw out a challenge to listen yesterday. And to be intentional about it. So today we were supposed to tell what we learned or heard in the queitness.
Well, since I’m working now at W.M., it looked a bit different for me. I didn’t have TV or music, but phones ringing and people talking, ect. Although, it was amazingly ‘quiet’ yesterday for a Tuesday. I was able to sit at my desk for periods of time and found myself staring off into my screen. The Lord would bring to mind something and I would pray. Thoughts would come into my mind and immediately I recognized them for what they were, and renounced them. I thought on what is above…
I also thought that as I sat there, how many people that I work in close contact with know I’m a Christian, held to a higher standard?
I love the saying I heard when I was in jr. high:
You may be the only Bible some people read.
So my listening looked and sounded a bit different. And then got home and did Haven’s devotional and she got to write out the verse as a reminder that our eyes should be on the Lord and not other people/things.
It was: My eyes are ever fixed on the Lord.
Hmmmmm.
Jesus, thank You for dear friends who challenge me. Thank you that even though I don’t sit and listen as I should or stop to truly be still, that there are ways you speak…people you bring, visions and dreams. I pray that You would give me that vision tonight of what it is You want me to know.
We fix our eyes on You, the author and perfecter of our faith.
K.
God is God. There is no other. He is Redeemer. He makes a way in the wilderness. He gives beauty for ashes. He restores. He’s the lover of my soul. He delights in me. He is my Father. He rejoices over me with singing. He sees my heart. He knows my thoughts. He loves me as I am. He is faithful. He is everlasting. His name is higher than the heavens. He makes all things new. He is merciful. His love endures. He protects us. He will do what He says He will do. He is who He says He is. God is God.
At Silver Dollar City holding the bunny.
Playing dress up with Courtney. Her first friend sleep over….
Haven wanted to take our picture….
I always have so many thoughts in this head of mine, it’s so hard to process it all. Journaling helps a lot, however, there are times where I just don’t feel like writing it out…or typing it out….or even just thinking. My mind is always on over drive…I’ve always been a thinker rather than a talker…when it comes to expressing those thoughts, at times I feel like it gets mixed up between the thought and the speaking. My mind goes faster than what I speak….
We had a message on grace and truth on Sunday. How if you don’t have a good balance of both it’s just not good. How we should extend grace with truth. I know at times that’s the hardest to do depending on the situation. I do know that when your faced with that situation, Jesus sure knows how to extend it to us so we can then extend it. The amazing, unmerited, undeserved grace and mercy….how I pray that my life is so much a picture of Him. That in my brokenness, others would find Him…He gives grace to the humble and strength to the weak. His mercies are new every morning. He sees us as we are. I don’t have to have it all right in my head before I speak, before I claim those promises. He just desires for me to be open and willing.
I raise my heads upward, lift my head to the sky, and say ‘Jesus, I am yours. Do with me what You will. As I walk through the fire You are there, I will not be burned. As I sit in the quiet, You are there beside me. In the chaos, You are my calm. In the desperateness, You are my life.
Thank You for the co worker today who encouraged me that because you began a good work, You will complete it. That it is for GOOD and not for evil. Oh Jesus, the cry of my heart is just to be….may Your praises continue to be on my lips and in my heart—Your truth spoken through me to those who are so desperate to hear, even though they can’t see it.
May You be glorified always in our brokenness, our praise, our life, our thoughts, our words. You are more precious than silver—you are the treasure I seek—I want to be found in You. Thank You for Your open arms that always hold me and draw me closer…thank You for holding me tonight. Your peace overwhelms me as I type…that You are restoring, You are healing, I am home. I love You.
I had a pretty bad day today and came home a bit ago. A few minutes ago, I saw this man on the INSP channel singing this song, and I can’t tell you the peace and the presence in my room and in my heart. Thank you Jesus for the little ways you speak to me.
I love you.
